My 29th Birthday

My 29th birthday has come and gone. I celebrated with my husband, family and friends. It was nice and I'm so grateful for all the sweet people I have by my side. It was definitely not celebrated the way I had imagine I'd be celebrating it. I had imagined celebrating with my little nugget being 3 months. Still trying to figure out how to be a mom and have fun all at the same time. What I'd give for that experience. But such is life and I'm playing the cards I've been dealt. All I can do now is live to the fullest and hope my son is looking down on me proudly. I'm definitely not the same person I was a year ago. Not necessarily a bad thing. Not so sure it's a good thing either. I'm still a bit torn and still trying to figure myself out. I'm convinced this will be a never ending battle. But I'll make it through.

I'm thankful for the life I've been given but I will forever think about what life would be like if my son where here with me.

I love and think about you always Noel! Your dad and I talk about you always. We celebrate the time we had with you.

All my love <3